RE-POST: Sunday, August 12th 2007

All:

I am sorry for the delay on an update, but I want you all to know that I appreciate the emails, cards, phone calls, etc. Sometimes in the midst of pain, you can feel very alone when reality is quite the opposite. Please know how much I appreciate everything, I just have not wanted to talk about it or discuss it with anyone at this time. So, thank you to you all for your comfort and support. I truly have great friends and family to be thankful for in my life! Even if I don’t always appreciate it like I should.

Although I cannot say I am completely at peace with it all, I have somewhat come to grips with the news. I am trying not to give up on hope, but my somewhat cynical nature seems to have taken over. Maybe it is a defense mechanism for me to think the worst, but doesn’t mean all is lost. I do know that, even if I don’t want to admit it at times.

Not much has happened since I last wrote only because I was out of town and my sister just left today from visiting for a few days. Always nice to have Pam here and we were able to celebrate Mom’s birthday at the nursing home. Another big emotional event, but that is another story in itself.

I have heard from the doctor that my appointment with the specialist is set for September 18th! I know, I couldn’t believe it either. Although they are trying to get me something sooner than that, it could be that long before I know anymore. I was a little distraught over the length of time only because I am experiencing some pain and discomfort. But, nothing I can’t handle. The doctor did give me something for pain, but cannot take unless I am going to be at home. These days, that is not that often. At least it will help on days I can until I can see him in September. In reality, it isn’t all that far away but seems like an eternity to me now. Hope to hear more this week in regards to maybe getting an earlier date with the specialist. Will let you know more when the time comes.

Thanks again from the bottom of my heart!